Just a Lil Bit

Since my last post, I've been getting a lil bit better. My friends I go to school with have been coming back. Slowly but surely. Even my best friend from 9th grade (Jax) is back! I love him with all my heart. But things are still a lil awkward in my opinion. I asked Mason to Sadie's and he answered the very next day! He gave me a Betta fish and his name is Carl (but don't worry, he doesn't eat hands). And Carl makes very great company!

My mom being gone isn't nearly as bad. My friends who have come back to me have been supporting me. I stayed at my "sister's" house for the past 4 nights and it helped a lot! I kinda don't really want my mom to come back. . . Because she will make be do stuff I don't want to. . . but i guess it'll be good for me [=

I am still trying to cope with Clark being gone. I still tear up when i mention him. Just about everything around me reminds me of him. I miss the small things we would do. Like after he had a fun night, he would come into my room and tell me about it. I miss him and i singing Tim and Eric songs together (They're so stupid but i miss it). I miss him making tea all the time. I miss hearing his music while he gets ready. I miss everything about that boy. But it wouldn't be good if I didn't miss him.

So basically I'm slightly better. Not completely, but a lil bit.

"I've got to admit it's getting better. It's a little better all the time."
- Paul McCartney